12:17 AM
juz saw edmund online.....
jan's dere too.....
nah jan wld nv like edmund.... so im NOT jealouz.... but jan's quite forthcoming in her request huh.... she juz asked edmund "so are u getting me anything tmr?" *laughs bitterly* y issit so hard to juz let go? why?? why??? why???? i dun even dare to ask him anything lidat.
god... i betta start pep toking myself...
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dunno how to..... tmr's my last band concert n im feeling so depressed.... funnie i nv felt like dis wen i.... forget it. no use tinking abt de past. tink future, ger!! future...... is where u're headed. not past. dun go wrong direction....
gotta slp.....
my life's so depressing dese days. actualli beth wld be de onli one to cheer me up rite now.... but she wld be too bz tmr to hav time for me.... stand up ger! hav some backbone....
sighz.....
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