Church woes
1:52 PM
Hmm... sighz.
Aunt's away in M'sia today... and jh (pls do not mix dis guy up wif sydney's bf... they're two different ppl) invited me to attend his church service... but i turned it down... Honestly, honestly honestly i do want to go but dere are... obstructions? firstly i dunoe wad time aunt will return from her visit to M'sia... she told me it was a half day thing and she would be back in de afternoon... and secondly nobody's gng wif me... ermz after hearing sum stuff abt chc i dun tink i wan to go chc fer de first time on my own... besides, im afraid tt at de end of service or wadeva they might make de newbies dere go up on de podium to annouce tt i've received Christ or wadeva... tt's not very nice (in my opinion). call me an introvert, or whatever u wish, but i prefer to worship God in my own way... excuse me fer those ppl hu dun agree wif me, but i tink its embarrasing to go up to the podium and annouce tt i've recieved Christ. Not tt receiving Christ is embarassing (its definately not), its de act of gng up on the podium in front of masses of strangers and announcing.. tt's wad i dun like. At least wait till im familiar wif de church and its ppl, den i'll do tt... *sigh* so jh... if u come across dis page juz wanna say im sorry k? i do have my reasons which at tt time seemed unexplainable over de phone... and sorry God... i do realli wish to attend church service, i realli do but.... im not ready....
*sighz* wad a day. my mood which seemed to have lifted slightly seemed to have gone down again... is dere still time to rush to jh's church service? ok nopez. its 1.50pm now... by de time i rush dere i'll be juz in time fer de closing speech. and chc's right at the other end of the island... oh well...