10:58 PM
strange, but i felt lost both today and yesterday.i was doing grocery shopping in NTUC yesterday, and for some reason i felt listless. every corner i turned, i expected someone to show up. but he didn't. i knew it was stupid to even expect him to show up, but childishly in my mind i thought he might. by the time i got to the cash register, i was almost... resigned. resigned to what, i don't know.
i passed by the Six counter while walking through Isetan just now. what caught my eye was sparkly earrings. immediately my mind jumped to my two favourite pairs of earrings which, unfortunately, i had carelessly lost (no it wasn't misplaced; one earring of each pair was lost somewhere on the streets of Singapore). those two were bought at Six in city hall. impulsively i almost got a pair on the spot just to relieve the funny feeling of depression that was setting in my heart. i knew why. One of the two pairs held value. it was the first ever earrings he had ever bought in his life, and it was my first pair of earrings from him. ruby red metallic rose studs, complete with fine, tiny and elegant silver dangling chains.
and now it was lying somewhere on Singapore's streets. Or probably even in the dumpster. or incineration plant. *winces* i don't wanna think about it.
i'm missing him more than i thought i would.
i miss you, baby.