10:35 PM
confusion.my mind is overrun with chaos.
i knew, i knew, that if i ever get hitched, it wouldn't be easy.
i finally dared to approach the topic, and i was shot back with the accusation of being unfilial.
i knew it would happen.
neither side is willing to budge, so i'm sandwiched in between.
neither side understands what i'm thinking and what i'm going through, so i am misunderstood.
both, while jealously clinging onto their own bits of happiness which they think they deserve, have chosen to tear the middle one apart instead.
i am torn.
i am liable to think it is my fault.
maybe i should retire into a nunnery instead.