Dreams
10:19 AM
Dreams... do they realli mean anything? Sometimes i so wish dreams were true...
Juz two nights ago i had this weird dream... mind u, its not de first time i has dis kind of dream. Im my dream, i knew i was lying on my mattress on de floor as usual... juz like real life... onli suddenly there was dis unseen-able tremendous force pressing itself upon me... i dunno wad it was, i couldn't even see it! but i could feel tremendous pressure crushing down on me, suffocating me... de feeling was so real, my windpipe really felt out of air! i tried to wave or even hit wadeva tt was pressing down on me but i couldn't. Couldn't move my arm! it was stuck. Struggling was futile.... im my desperation i had yelled out for God. I yelled and yelled, yet de 'thing' was still pressing down on me... until suddenly i woke up, and de pressure stopped. mind you, it wasn't easy waking up... like i couldn't wake up u noe? i was so terrified i would be suffocated again later on tt i prayed to God and crossed my fingers thruout de nite... din release them until my alarm clock rang... i remembered subconsciously relating it to elements of de third kind cuz of de seventh month... which, ironically, began on de day i dreamed this.... choi~!!!! *shudders*
But u noe... i have more than once wondered y i even bothered struggling... shd have juz... done nothing. hmm... mebbe de next time i get dis dream i shall not struggle. Hey its not a bad bargain, u noe, cuz if i realli do get suffocated and die in my sleep, i wouldn't need to take de A levels anymore! haha... neither do i have to worry abt getting into University, or even worry abt getting a job. i would be somewhere faraway, possibly (and hopefully) with God, living my own little quiet private life somewhere else.... where only de sounds of birds and nature existed, where onli peace and quiet and happiness existed... where only ideals and beautiful dreams existed... no stress, no pressure, no pain, no nothing unpleasant.
Wow.