10:08 PM
i've been pestered to update my blog umpteen times, so here i am, here to make a mundane post on my still rather hectic semester. yes i do considering blogging everyday events mundane... unless they are blogged to prove a point or perspective.
was feeling quite bad after taekwondo ivp training jus now. xiaoyun flimed our eejang performances, and honestly they are so so far from being perfect. and the whole pattern is supposed to be synchronized, and yet we are not. and i'm the one making the most mistakes... forward stance not wide enough, superman punch, overshooting my arms in cha-riot position, front thrust not together, feet not arched enough... aaaargh. i feel like im pulling the team down or something. and if you know me well enough, that's the one thing i hate most. pulling the whole team down. i simply detest letting people take the rap for me. i hate feeling like im the black sheep or something. the odd one out. in simpler words, i feel darn lousy.
going to church has become so difficult. man. my schedule clashes horribly. its either i choose tkd over church. or i choose church over tkd. or i choose either of the above over going home and vice versa. Lord! Give me a hand here. i really want to worship in Your House, but there are so many obstructions which are not within my control. or rather, You are asking me to make very difficult decisions. to train properly i need to go for every ivp training. if not i'll continue to pull the team down and that totally sucks. i need to go home, at least once a week! This is basic filial piety... it is written in the Bible "Honor your mother and father." (ok i know the Bible doesnt say "Honor your aunt" but my aunt's like my second mum so its the same k?) and finally, how can i not go for church services? the seventh day of the week is also known as Sabbath Day, and it is set aside to worship the Lord. so how can i not go church?
sigh. this really has been a mundane post. not that i can think of anything thoughtful to write down, given my state of tiredness. so im gonna hit the shower now and later its going to be hitting the books. Gosh. Notes. Books. i spent a fortune on them man. better make use of them wisely.